Nice conversation

one of my last blogs was about my worries around my baby.
But yesterday I had a veru nice conversation with my mother in law. It was not directly about my worries, it was just about her point of view of things specially around relantionships. It was nie because I got to see a side that I liked and made feel confortable around certain issues I had.
it is always great to see that you have something in common with her. Specially when we see each other everyday.
This week has been hard, on monday I got really low of energy and felt a coulpe of times that I was out of air, it felt like someone was squeezing my lungs.
I haven´t been able to sleep well. I wake up at 2 am with insomnia. hope it gets better.
Kids at school are getting wild because we are getting near the end and they are tired.
Weel hope everybodyis well.
I find myself with an extra need to be in touch of my family specially of my mom, she receives phone calls every other day, I call her from the internet and she hears all my side effects of my pregnancy.
a big hug for my dear family, love you all.

open class 2

Just wanted to say that the last open class I had came out fine, parents were happy. Sadly I did not have time to take pictures.
This open class was a play were my student created a story, so it was very simple but nice.

what a mom means

From the moment one hears or realizes that one is going to be a mother, wow, so many ideas go through your mind. What is his or hers name going to be? what is his or hers personality going to be like, Am I going to raise my children right. It is so hard to know how to raise a child. Then is when one starts thinking well what did my mom and dad do to teach me all the things and values I needed to learn. Now I know I am not perfect but at least I am not out there sleeping of my beautiful young days, or stealing or into drugs. When all this questions came to my mind you see or realize that the best is to turn and ask for help for the ones who know, if you thought books are the ones that know I will have to say you are wrong, there is so much information out there about what has to be done and what doesn´t that what will do is just confuse you and not help you. The best help is experience. Now where do I find experience, defently not in internet where there is soo much information that who knows its true.
Since I considere that my brothers and I are good people, well, My mom is the best choice, Mothers are always willing to give advice even when you don´t ask for it, but I think that is alot better then not getting any advice. Who will know better how to hold your baby, or how to take out the gases after the baby has eaten, or what food they should or not eat.
Sadly I don´t have the luck to have my mom here next to me, but well Fidel has the fortune to have her close, and to be able to Ask for help when he doesn´t know what to do about some issue with Amanita, or have someone where to leave her and I mean a place where you know by all ways that she is going to be taken care of and be able to share moments with her grandmother. Been a parent and been a grandparent is soo different. A parents responsability is to educate the child but a grandparents responsability is to spoile the child, the grandparent already did their job, they brought up their children, they educated them, now it is time to spoile and to just share time with no need of having rules or anything besides having a good time togheter.
The relantionship in between one and the mother in law is hard no matter what, always have to be tactful, my in laws are great always willing to help and always giving advice, I know they are going to spoile my baby very much but it is their turn to do so we will have our time for that also. NOw the advice in laws give you, well, you can always take as theya re trying ti control you or they are just wanting to help, the way you look at it depends on you. And hey, they did an excellent job growing Juan MAnuel, what should be my worry, right?? I know that leaving my baby with them is going to be safe and they are not going to leave my baby under a car or next to boiling pot. One has to think where our fears are coming from, are there real or not. Luckly I have 5 more months to thinks about where my fears are coming from and if they are real, and I have to let go to the idea of controlling everything around my baby.

Open class

The past week I have been drawing, cutting, painting and doing alot of creative work.
You see in the school where I work every year around april or may they have these open class activities, where parents go to the class to watch a special class the english teacher has prepared to show how their son or daughter has learned along the year.
Well I prepared special songs and asked students questions and it came out nice, parents were happy, the scenary I prepared for third graders was like an aquarium with fish and different sea animals, it looked nice I have to say. :)
Now I have to finish the scenary for the play fourth graders wanted to do, I hope it comes out ok, but still hape to go paint and work on it.
Will post some pictures soon.

second doctors appointment

Well, The first months I havent been shure how long I have been pregnant for, now you will say “how can she not know“, easy go to two different doctors and each one tells you a different story. Picking my doctor was a whole big decition, but finally I got one, it is the same doctor that helped give birth to Juan Manuel´s mother. I trust him a lot more than the other doctor I went to. I wanted experience in the doctor and he has it, and I really liked that he took his time to listen to ALL our questions, the other doctor did not listen at all.
Well went to my second appointment and I am 14 week or 3 month and a half, sweet.
That means my nausea is getting better, ooooooooo, ginger tea really helps with nausea, you should try it when you can.
We heard the babies heart beat, not clearly but some kind of noise he or she does at this time of life.
Now I have a lot of pelvic pain, but I guess that is normal.
working with kids is hard, they need soo much energy and I have to create that energy from who know where.