wisdom teeth

This year has been a year of experimenting alot of different situations. Well It was time for some fun. Lets go to the dentist!!!!!! Come on, it is one of the best things you can do. Well I knew I had to have my wisdom teeth pulled out, but I always thought that I was going to be one of those lucky 1 in a 100 that don´t swell. ( kind of forgot about the eating problem).
So no big deal I was going to be lucky so I went all by myself to the dentist for the operation, yeah I thought I was stronger I guess, there I was liying seing the dentist not wearing gloves, smelling like cigarettes, and giving me novaltine ( I think you spell it like that). I was so nervous i was trembeling. it was an experience I have to say, specially after the operation and you have drink a pain killer, since you can´t feel your mouth it feels like no water is coming in, it is weird.
Boy!!!! my face was so different, three sizes more at least.
Oh!!!, when they finished they gave me my teeth so I can make an earing.
Well I can only say that I am really glad that I don´t have to go through that again.

incident

Well here I am, it has been a long time and so many things have happened.
First Juan Manuel and I got locked up in the bathroom, now let me describe my bathroom, well the shower is a Chinese capsule where you go in to take a shower and it also has a kind of back Jacuzzi that actually doesn’t work it just tickles you and most of the parts are plastic, bathroom sink is a big glass bowl (it is actually nice, but now I know that it is not practical), well anyway one Thursday morning I was getting ready to go in the shower and JM came in to brush his teeth and he closed the door and !buala! We were locked inside, the door will not open, I just continued taking a shower maybe me not freaking out would help, well yes it was early in the morning no one is expecting us so no one will notice that maybe something happened to this couple, we were not eating at JM´s parents house, so maybe if we were lucky they would notice on Tuesday 8 don’t forget This happened on a Thursday (while all this was happening I was thinking “ well at least I had an extra portion of chocolate pudding”. JM was getting anxious but I just let him do what he wanted to do, break the nail clipper to see if the door opened, use a needle, and asking me now what are we going to do???? Yeah I was asking myself the same thing, but no answers, ooooooooo meanwhile the phone kept ringing four times, JM´s father was calling us and he tried both cell phones but he had no idea we were locked in, and he actually never thought that maybe something happened even so he called four times and no one answered.
Well my bathroom does not have a window, so no possibility to yell for help, but it does have a glass cover so light comes in, so we moved that glass, actually we broke it but who cares it was our life, so after braking the glass JM carried me on his shoulder and I climbed to the ceiling, that means in between the roof and the ceiling, I don’t know how to explain that part, it would kind of be like an attic if it had a floor, well once I was up there I had to break the ceiling in another part of the house so I could jump and open the door, but guess what??? With what do I break the ceiling if everything in the bathroom is of plastic?? Well I found a glass jar under the sink and worked with that, after having a space to jump I realize that it was high, but I was going to jump until JM told me to be careful because if I bumped my head and got unconscious there would be no one to help us, so there I stopped and started to think how I could it, because I made the hole where there was a basket so I had like a 25 inch space to actually jump, finally I did jump, after meditating for at least half an hour, so when I went to open the door, guess what?? It did not open, we had to call JM´s father to bring someone to open the door, finally the JM´s brother went to look for a guy but that guy said that maybe in an hour he could help us, that was funny after being in the bathroom 2 hours he wanted us to wait for another hour, finally another guy came and he had to climb back from were I came so he could be inside the bathroom, because it turned out that it was easier to open from inside, of course with the correct instruments.
Well that’s the story, I am fine now, but now every time I go inside a bathroom I check to see if there is anything to break down the door just in case. If you are wondering why we did not kick the door, well no shoes is the answer.

friendship

Well it has been such a difficult time, it is hard to really adjust to the idea I will no longer have the child I had in my belly. I still produce milk, peppermint tea seams not to help, now I am letting my body take care of it, I think that if my body is still handling it that means that my mind and my heart are defently still handling it too.
There are times when I don´t think about it, but there are times that sad glimpses aproche me.
Having my mom here is so good, being with company preventes me from thinking in sad things, plus she helps around so much.
I guess all difficult situations show you something, I think I never realized how many people care for me or how many dear friends I have. I knew I had friends to go out with, to have fun but you never realize how close you are until these things happen.
It was nice that on my birthday my college friends decided to cook for my party, so they made this deliciuos meal, sauteed vegetables with these delicious chinesse mushroom, mushrooms cooked in red wine, green rice, chicken with a corn sauce, mmmmm makes me want more. It was sweet. Another group of friends brought the cake, and flowers. it was a nice evening.
I am thankful to have people that care for me.
I have a great family, I could not ask for better, and great friends.

Time for some shopping

Well I am at the point that you put on a pairo f pants and upps!!! It doesn´t fit, well ok let´s put on that pair of pants that I bought oversize two years ago. So there I am with just one pair of pants that fit. Now, should I wear those pants everyday???? Guess not, specially because they are white. So I started wearing my other pants but I will not buttom them up, I will put a hair elastic that goes from the hole to the buttom. It worked for a while, but I will feel them very loose. Jajaja always pulling my pants up.
For some odd reason I did not want to go buy maternity pants. But it is time to put all my old pants away an start a new set of clothing.
It felt strange when I put on maternity pants, you defently feel you are pregnant and your belly really stands out. It was time for my belly to be notice, everyone was saying that I dont have a belly, but ja, I do now.
Ok, here something to think about, in what mind does it fit to think that opening a surfing store in Cuenca would be sucessful. In the middle of the Andes.
After that lets continue looking for clothing.
Well in a couple of weeks I will be over there with my dear family.
See you soon. Can´t wait.

my other baby: my CHICO

He doesn´t like liying on grass so he is on our friends sweater, that is why he is so close to our friend


with Juan Manuel on a walk

at a bar

When I still could have a beer, before I was pregnant; now I am skinner. funny huh??

more pictures

finally a picture of Juan Manuel and I, this was on his birthday february 22

first picture of my blog

My first picture Ecuadors president in his birthday party in Cuenca.

HAPPY FATHER´S DAY

Happy father´s day to my two brothers.
It has been an interesting year with new experiences and adventures: long nights, with great magnificant crying sounds that tell you that she is hungry, changing dippers, washing dippers.
A big hug for Fidel and Miguel love you a bunch and enjoy your day.

news from the doctor

Yesterday we went for a very special doctors appointment, we went to the 18th week ECO, the one were you can see if the baby is a girl or a boy, and to verify that everything is ok with the baby.
Well we had decided not to find out what was the sex of the baby, but on the days before Juan Manuel started to want to know and then yesterday I was kind of wanting it but still liked the idea of not knowing better.
What one feels when you first see the baby inside you is so dificult to describe, just let me tell you that the second I saw the baby I couldn´t stop smiling and when you see him or her move WOW that is all I can say.
Well the doctor started taking messurements of his bones. The doctor said that the baby was moving alot and that it was hard to see. So that is when Juan Manuel asks if at this point you can see his sex, and the doctor answered that it was hard because the umbilical cord was just in between the legs, but here is where the doctor figured that we did want to know, ( of course I did not know he was thinking that or I would have stopped him) so he ketp looking at the baby and for some reason that split second you could see what the baby was and he started to say and before I could stop him he said “ it´s a BOY, its clear its a boy” I just laught because what can you do, rewind???no.
I have to say Juan Manuel´s mother has been knitting a lot in girl colors so in a way lucky boy he is not going to wear pink stuff.
So Amanita and Sylvia are going to have a male cousin, it si going to be nice.
Now I have to think in male names and for some reason it is very hard for me to think in one. Girls are easier.
Well my little boy is fine I guess next week we have to g oto or normal doctor so he can see the eco and tell us if everythink is fine.
My weight has been 120 for the past three months so I am a little worried, I have to eat more.

Nice conversation

one of my last blogs was about my worries around my baby.
But yesterday I had a veru nice conversation with my mother in law. It was not directly about my worries, it was just about her point of view of things specially around relantionships. It was nie because I got to see a side that I liked and made feel confortable around certain issues I had.
it is always great to see that you have something in common with her. Specially when we see each other everyday.
This week has been hard, on monday I got really low of energy and felt a coulpe of times that I was out of air, it felt like someone was squeezing my lungs.
I haven´t been able to sleep well. I wake up at 2 am with insomnia. hope it gets better.
Kids at school are getting wild because we are getting near the end and they are tired.
Weel hope everybodyis well.
I find myself with an extra need to be in touch of my family specially of my mom, she receives phone calls every other day, I call her from the internet and she hears all my side effects of my pregnancy.
a big hug for my dear family, love you all.

open class 2

Just wanted to say that the last open class I had came out fine, parents were happy. Sadly I did not have time to take pictures.
This open class was a play were my student created a story, so it was very simple but nice.

what a mom means

From the moment one hears or realizes that one is going to be a mother, wow, so many ideas go through your mind. What is his or hers name going to be? what is his or hers personality going to be like, Am I going to raise my children right. It is so hard to know how to raise a child. Then is when one starts thinking well what did my mom and dad do to teach me all the things and values I needed to learn. Now I know I am not perfect but at least I am not out there sleeping of my beautiful young days, or stealing or into drugs. When all this questions came to my mind you see or realize that the best is to turn and ask for help for the ones who know, if you thought books are the ones that know I will have to say you are wrong, there is so much information out there about what has to be done and what doesn´t that what will do is just confuse you and not help you. The best help is experience. Now where do I find experience, defently not in internet where there is soo much information that who knows its true.
Since I considere that my brothers and I are good people, well, My mom is the best choice, Mothers are always willing to give advice even when you don´t ask for it, but I think that is alot better then not getting any advice. Who will know better how to hold your baby, or how to take out the gases after the baby has eaten, or what food they should or not eat.
Sadly I don´t have the luck to have my mom here next to me, but well Fidel has the fortune to have her close, and to be able to Ask for help when he doesn´t know what to do about some issue with Amanita, or have someone where to leave her and I mean a place where you know by all ways that she is going to be taken care of and be able to share moments with her grandmother. Been a parent and been a grandparent is soo different. A parents responsability is to educate the child but a grandparents responsability is to spoile the child, the grandparent already did their job, they brought up their children, they educated them, now it is time to spoile and to just share time with no need of having rules or anything besides having a good time togheter.
The relantionship in between one and the mother in law is hard no matter what, always have to be tactful, my in laws are great always willing to help and always giving advice, I know they are going to spoile my baby very much but it is their turn to do so we will have our time for that also. NOw the advice in laws give you, well, you can always take as theya re trying ti control you or they are just wanting to help, the way you look at it depends on you. And hey, they did an excellent job growing Juan MAnuel, what should be my worry, right?? I know that leaving my baby with them is going to be safe and they are not going to leave my baby under a car or next to boiling pot. One has to think where our fears are coming from, are there real or not. Luckly I have 5 more months to thinks about where my fears are coming from and if they are real, and I have to let go to the idea of controlling everything around my baby.

Open class

The past week I have been drawing, cutting, painting and doing alot of creative work.
You see in the school where I work every year around april or may they have these open class activities, where parents go to the class to watch a special class the english teacher has prepared to show how their son or daughter has learned along the year.
Well I prepared special songs and asked students questions and it came out nice, parents were happy, the scenary I prepared for third graders was like an aquarium with fish and different sea animals, it looked nice I have to say. :)
Now I have to finish the scenary for the play fourth graders wanted to do, I hope it comes out ok, but still hape to go paint and work on it.
Will post some pictures soon.

second doctors appointment

Well, The first months I havent been shure how long I have been pregnant for, now you will say “how can she not know“, easy go to two different doctors and each one tells you a different story. Picking my doctor was a whole big decition, but finally I got one, it is the same doctor that helped give birth to Juan Manuel´s mother. I trust him a lot more than the other doctor I went to. I wanted experience in the doctor and he has it, and I really liked that he took his time to listen to ALL our questions, the other doctor did not listen at all.
Well went to my second appointment and I am 14 week or 3 month and a half, sweet.
That means my nausea is getting better, ooooooooo, ginger tea really helps with nausea, you should try it when you can.
We heard the babies heart beat, not clearly but some kind of noise he or she does at this time of life.
Now I have a lot of pelvic pain, but I guess that is normal.
working with kids is hard, they need soo much energy and I have to create that energy from who know where.